Ty Christmas pt 1

As I lay in my bed going threw Netflix just trying to find something to watch, I can't help but think of one thing. Guys. Him. I know he is the one. He was my first kiss. My first love. I don't see myself with anyone other than him. I try. I try to date other guys. They works for a little bit but then my mind just goes right back to him. Ty. Its just a long story with him. One that I am not emotionally stable enough to write.

But what I can say is about christmas break. Best and saddest break. He came home. Home to Alaska. I saw him at church with his parents. Walking past the car with my friend his dad yells out why I don't come say hi. I see Ty in the back and smile at his parents and keep walking. In church with my friend sitting in the front row with our friends and Ty's younger brother. I didn't notice they came in. Ty came up to me and stood in front of me. He opens his arms like he wants me to hug him. I stand up and hug him. He asks how I am doing and I say I'm good. Little does he know my heart is racing. I don't know what to do. He doesn't know that I have never stopped loving him. He goes back to sit with his dad. Church begins. Sitting in the front row I listen to what the pastor has to say. He talks about relationships. Saying that neither the male or female is dominant. He keeps talking.

Then an hour later it is over. I walk back to talk to his parents and talk to them. Showing new tattoos and the stories behind them. Feel like Ty just stares at me. Sometimes I feel like they are more like family to me than my own family. My friends go to the back of the church and talk. We were going to go get stuff for a party. Ty comes over and asked to join. My friends look at me knowing our past history. I agree for him to come with us. 15 min later we are walking to the parking lot. Ty and his brother race for my truck. Ty yells at his brother saying he needs to talk to me alone. When we leave we drive to meet our friends at a store. They didn't show up for 30 min. While we waited we talked. He tells me that he shouldn't have broke up with me two years ago. My heart is beating. My with has come true. My love has come back to me. Then my phone goes off. Its my friend Jenny. I ask what is taking her so long. She apologizes and says to meet her at Walmart.

We drive there and beat them there. He is still talking and I open the door. He says stop and kisses me. Oh how I loved to kiss him again. I get out of the truck and I walk over to his side. He says we have to wait a few minutes now. It doesn't take long for me to remember. He reminds me that I turn him on easily. After a few minutes we walk in. Walking threw the store we go to where there are christmas lights. I love them. Then he stops me. He grabs my hands and kisses me. He asked me if I was still a virgin. I say no. He has a face of relief. He says that he is happy to hear that. That way we can be together and not have me be emotionally attached to him. He then asked what should we look at next. I say auto. He gets a huge grin on his face. He says thats my girl and we walk over. My friend then texted me to come over the the front where the payed games are at. When we arrive we talk and get what we needed. I love that boy. He knows it. Still hurts me everyday. But damn. I love a guy with tattoos.